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Do what projects you want Coko and donât feel like you have to finish Purple delusions any time soon. I think I speak for a lot of people when I say that we love all of your AUs and want you to enjoy making them, and not feel burnt out on one. đ
People need to be patient, creators do this in their free time and their followers should not be in charge of what they draw or when it comes out.
I love your work Coko! Keep drawing what makes you happy, not what others rudely demand.
Luckily no ones really been pushing for me to post which oddly enough effects me both ways. I still love the comic, thereâs shit I wanna show yall but Iâm justâŚeughhh. Iâm mainly more frustrated with myself when it comes to drawing. Iâve always known that the randomness that my head comes up with is a bit much but lately itâs been more noticeable on my part.
Ive been getting stuck to my bed a lot more lately, my heads messing with my body a bit. Thereâs too much goin through my head idea wise Iâm literally getting paralyzed by it. Unneeded info to tell yall but itâs just a small update.
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I looked through my old drawings again and found the first D. I think I posted it a long time ago but deleted it so I'll show it again
#vampire hunter d#vhd#I look at this and think how my style has changed#I used to draw digitally and make âcleanerâ sketches#Now I feel more confident drawing in my sketchbook#I understand that both have their positive aspects#I just think what really makes me happy and free is drawing#I used to be fixated on making the painting clean because every wrong stroke could be noticed#(it's not trueđ)#Now I just like sketching#I know some sketches are too dirty but I still post them#if too dirty then on my other profile haha#I really wish I had a scanner to show you nice pics sorry#I'm just thinking about something. about myself and my art...
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mommy let you use her ipad, you were barely two
and it did all the things we designed it to do
now look at you, look at you!
(objectober 2024 day 10: internet)
#dandy's doodles#inanimate insanity#ii#ii steve cobs#ii mephone#ii spoilers#ii 16 spoilers#objectober#objectober 2024#okay i'll be honest. the final drawing barely fits the prompt#however! it was inspired by it#'internet' immediately made me think of 'welcome to the internet' by bo burnham#and my mind instantly jumped to 'and it did all the things we designed it to do'#and y'know... steve cobs designed mephone to be able to create things#and so in a way mephone is fulfilling his purpose by creating the contestants#he's fulfilling his purpose by doing what his dad did#and then that made me think of the garden of eden story#where god creates both adam and the tree of knowledge#he tells adam not to eat its fruit and yet adam inevitably does; thus adam gains free will#and one has to wonder if that was god's intention all along - for humans to have free will#whereby adam - through the apparent defiance of god - is able to become exactly what he was created for#and y'know... mephone making his show as a rebellion against cobs...#only for that very show to be a creation borne of his intended purpose#so yeah. my mind jumped from bo burnham to the biblical creation of man#anyway!! very very happy with how this turned out#my favorite part is the charger snakes. i'm so glad i came up with that idea#also cobs' arm! that turned out really well! i referenced my own hand for his!!#in any event... it turns out i really really like biblical imagery and symbolism huh#also yes i did stay up all night like a maniac drawing this. the idea came to me and i just had to see it through :D i'm glad i did
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triglycercule..
STOP I HAVENT FINISHED MY THANK YOU ART FOR THE FIRST BUNDLE OF JK AU DRAWINGS YOU SENT ME AND NOW YOURE GIVING ME THE FULL VERSION OF THE FOURTH ON E??? đđâźď¸âď¸âď¸âď¸đđđđđđ THEH LOOK SO CUTE AND ADORABLE ANS PERFECT YOU DRAW THEM SO WELL I LOVE THE GRAYSCALE LOOK AND SEEINF THEM WITH LEGS THIS TIME IS SOOO CUTE I LOVE SEEING LEGWARMERS I M GENUINELY TEEKING GEEKING DYING IM SO THANKFUL FOR THISâźď¸âźď¸âźď¸!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU'RE A LEDGEND YIUR A GOD YOUR EVERYTHING THST THE WORLD NEEDED IM SO HAOPY SOMEONE DREW THE JK MTT I DIDN'T EVEN PUT THST MUCH EFFORT INTO IT.,,,,,.... theyre so happy they make ME so happy AND ASIDE FROM THST YOURE ACTUALLY SO GOOD AT ART THOUGH THIS IS JUST A sketch PROBABLY. clothing folds đ¤¤đ¤¤đ¤¤đ¤¤ expressions đ¤¤đ¤¤đ¤¤đ¤¤ hahhnds đ¤¤đ¤¤đ¤¤đ¤¤ why do i feel like i shouldve see this artstyle from someone before. who are you gshaewru. what type of name is thatHUH??? NTBE TYPE OF NAMR AN AMAZING PERSON WOULD HAVE FOR THEIR UMBLR ACCOUNT YOURE SO AMAZING PLEASE DON'T DIE. ok but again thank you so much for the jk!mtt art i've never been more overjoyed in my life this is like a blessing from the gods themselves for me. NOBODY KNOWS HOW MUCH THIS MEANS TO ME
#theyre so cute. theyre so cute. i will neber forget this#i will never move on from this i will forever remember thism gshaewru you are going to get everything that is coming for you. in a good way#WHO HAS FREE TIME TO DO THIS. WHO HAS FREE TIME TO MAKE ART OF A RANDOM TUMBLR ACCOUNTS LOWKEY CRINGE AU#i turned murderous and delusional freaks into cute schoolgirls and you thought. ah yes. time to draw that#AND TJEN YOU ACTUALLY DID IT YOU LUNATIC YOU ACTUALLY WENT AHEAD AND DID IT#i put jk au to the backburner ngl because i had other mtt content to do and think of snd finish#but ngl i might make more jk au designs then. i might make other aus in jk or at least resembling it#nanchatte seifuku my beloved. i cant wait to get back home and then try and replicate the jk mtts outfits with my own jk collection#THEYRE SOOOO CURE I CANT STOP LOOKING ST THIS#i need to make a comic on how horror's ribbon works i think#because you tried your best and i can see how you got the the idea that it was glued onto her head or something#but its actually tied around her skull. like it goes through the head wound and out from the bottom of the skull#DID I MENTION HOE CUTE THEY LOOKED HELP#i dont know if you ever knew this would make me this happy but it does make me this happy. incredibly happy#this is like giving a starving child a 5 course meal type of happiness#art for me takes so much time and energy and motivation to complete#and the fact that you made THIS PLUS THE OTHER THREE PHOTOS is just like#you HAD to have really wanted to draw them if you made that many in my eyes#ANS HOW LONG DID TJIS EVEN TAKE LIKE HELLO. i dont even think you've been following me that long#i love your srtstlye by the way its so amazing i cant describe it#the scribbly but also like. everything is meant to be where its meant to be. you know what youre doing#GENIUS. and they dont even look that horrendously not sans-like like i make them đđđđ#THEY LOOK LIKE THE MTT BUT LIKE. ALSO CUTE GIRLS. ITS THE PERFECT MIXTURE#tricule asks#stop with the jk fashion au content i wont be able to come up eith normal mtt ideas...... (i am thrilled st this no matter sorry i didnt me#jk fashion au#gshaewru strikes again
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Ya know what inktober or cringetober, what have you, I'll be drawing all these Isaac au shitpost nonsense baby. I FEEL ALIVE. WITNESS MY CRINGE OR LOOK AWAY IN DISGUST. IM LIVING! WRAAGGHHH
#i have not been able to draw this much in years dude#i went thru a whole sketchbook in just two weeks its freaking epic#my brain juices my hand juices theyre coming to life#too bad my fmla will end in november. god i wish i was paid to draw nonsense like this#and trust me you do not need to know or play isaac to know what the heck is going on#im the master of not knowing whats going on and the master of catfishing. i dont know anything and you shouldnt either#its all about wink wink nudge nudge but i take full creative liberties. im taking the reins and going into maximum overdrive#and i hope my new followers enjoy what im spitting. please take a gander at the other things i draw because i have bursts of hyperfixations#i just want to be free to draw what i want ya know. i always feel held back because it doesnt go toward with improvement or making money#but i really think i am improving right now by drawing all this stuff my brain is spitting. my hand tryna keep up with my thought patterns#its nice. and my hand isnt cramping. why? cause i keep taking breaks. me taking breaks yet still drawing this much#youll know you improve if can get thoughts and sketches down fast and comprehensible when you go to clean it up#im rambling but i jsut want you to know that i am happy. even if no one really pays attention to what ive beeb doing. be it this or my ocs#im having fun. genuine fun. i am so tired so goodnight. i lov e you guys
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whenever i post drawings on my twitter i barely get attention, probably because its not trendy stuff or because hashtags dont work and while i mostly draw for myself and for fun, i wont deny it makes me feel a little bummed out. but at the same time do i really want to get attention or more followers? it would probably stress me out or make me feel unconfident about what i do or post. its my inner struggle, i want people to see my content but at the same time i don't.
#posting my art makes me feel embarrassed cuz its all self indulgent and not exactly great#but at the same time im like. i know im cringe. but im free#i guess i feel embarrassed cuz i explain things about my drawings but a part of my brain is like ''i doubt anyone cares about that bro''#i think thats why when i post stuff on my art sideblog i just write a little comment about the drawing and thats it.#i talk about this kind of stuff and then realize how fucking dumb i sound sorry#i do get attention on my tumblr sideblog and it makes me happy though. i really appreciate that ^_^#i guess its easier for my art to be seen on tumblr? cuz of the tags#twitter does really suck for that kind of stuff. and apparently the hashtags make it worse? i dont know what to believe anymore lmao#mucho texto perdĂłn#samael.txt
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plants are such organism
#ouhhhhhhhhhh my dear#i just#im so conflicted right now man. dont read more cause this is emeotions /neg#my stuff isnt making me happy#my friendsâ stuff isnt making me happy#my friendsâ stuff is actually and actively making me worse#not anyones fault of course. thatâs on how my heads deciding to do things#im running out of videos to watch and time to have things i want to draw#I love my mutuals. i think. idont really know what love is#Icouldnt write about love to save my life#Icant even figure out how to put it in my lore#I cant give up on my camp stuff#thatâd be giving up on the only thing Iâve ever really tried to do. it means a lot to me. a very lot#sorry. truly#ive been trying to put my thoughts down somewhere and I think thats working#please ignore this post to save your own joy#ithink if I just start working on my stuff I can get a bit better. I do have free time tonight
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#will delete later if I remember to just need to yell into the void#why is my art doing so badly on here lately aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa#I thought it was just cause I was drawing for other fandoms and not just shuake#but even my shuake posts are doing so bad compared to how they used to I'm ?????#Like I think my art has gotten better yet it's just getting so little interaction#it is so disheartening like I might as well just stop sharing it idk#I love drawing and wouldn't stop but like if no one even likes it then idk the point in sharing it#and this is just like ugh#self pity but whatever. I want people to like my art enough to actually share it and say something nice about it#also saying this on main instead of my art blog to not guilt anyone ig feel free to ignore this#but it's frustrating#every time I think I'm happy with my art regardless of how well it does my brain likes to remind me that it isn't happy actually#which is so dumb!! cause I DO like my art. I like drawing it! and I like learning things about what I'm drawing too!!#but if something does bad on tumblr then suddenly I don't like it. adhd rsd how I loathe thee#also like my art has been doing better on twitter than tumblr and yet twitter does not offer me the same serotonin as tumblr this is bs#why would 200 notes on tumblr make me happy but I barely care about what I get on twitter as long as it's above 50#and yet it is twitter giving me the 200 notes wtf#it's not even doing bad on twitter why is my brain beating me up on this I swear to god#if anyone read this thanks for caring ig lmao#but fr like can my brain stop being a bitch about this#the twitter people are liking the art even if tumblr isn't really. chill out#anywayyyyy I have shouted into the void now thank you#I think I should stop drawing and play breath of the wild for a while#it would fix me <3
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request: was thinking about that one video thatâs like âmy wife, sheâll get upset if she sees you touching me like that on my chestâ âi am your wifeâ and then the heart monitor starts going crazy and that put a doctor remus idea in my head after r gets out of surgery/is on anesthesia for something or other
Thanks for requesting!
cw: hospital, mention of surgery
doctor!Remus x fem!reader ⥠855 words
Lots of people would probably be happy to have their significant other visit them at work, but as it turns out, Remus really doesnât like it. Heâs used to seeing patients post-op, and yet somehow when itâs you it feels sad, all those tubes and wires connected to his girl. The fluorescent lighting turns your complexion wan and the wary frown on your lips as a nurse checks your vitals makes Remusâ heart feel like a bruise.Â
It helps some when you notice his entry and they stretch into a dopey smile instead.Â
âHi, dove.â His voice is soft and smitten, an automatic reaction to seeing you that heâs already heard the new residents commenting on in the break room. âHow are you feeling?âÂ
âIâm okay.â You tug at the sheets on your bed. Ball them in your fists like you might be nervous. âMy stomach hurts a little.âÂ
âThatâs normal,â Remus assures you, even as his stomach dips in sympathy. He sits on the edge of your bed, taking your hand and beginning to draw tight circles into the inside of your wrist. âIf it starts to hurt worse, or badly at all, you should let me know, alright?âÂ
âOkay.â Your voice has quieted slightly, your eyes following the motion of his thumb on your skin. You glance at the nurse as though checking if she sees. Remus feels his lips tip up bemusedly.Â
âEverything alright?â he asks the nurse.
She smiles at the both of you, passing him a clipboard. âSheâs stable, ready to move when youâd like.âÂ
âThanks,â he says, reading over your vitals quickly after she leaves. He sets the clipboard down and gives your hand a squeeze. If your heart monitor gives a quick beep, he pretends not to notice. âYouâre all set, lovely girl. Weâll get you to your own room in just a bit.âÂ
You nod, not seeming to hear him. You look to be gnawing on the inside of your lip.Â
âHey, donât do that,â Remus says gently, thumbing it free. Your eyes widen, and he drops his thumb to your chin, looking you in the eyes. âIs something the matter?â
You rub your lips together hesitantly. Itâs normal to have a small fever after surgery, but your face feels suspiciously warm. âI just, um, I have a boyfriend.âÂ
Remus feels his face split into an irrepressible grin. Heâd been wondering how the anesthesia would affect you. âYeah, dove,â he agrees, delighted, âI know you do.âÂ
âI donâtâŚâ Your eyes dart to where his thumb still rests on your chin, your shoulders gravitating towards your ears. âI think it would upset him if he knew you were touching me like this.âÂ
Truly, this could not be any better. Remus wishes heâd brought a video camera like James wanted him to. âI am your boyfriend, sweetheart.âÂ
Your expression freezes in place, but your heart monitor starts beeping loudly. Your eyes dart to it, alarm and embarrassment worsening, and Remus laughs, dropping his hand from your chin in favor of rubbing your shoulder until both you and the machine calm down.Â
âYou?â you ask. You appear nothing short of flabbergasted.Â
âYes.â He brings your hand to his smiling lips, kissing your knuckles as if to prove it. âWhy, are you surprised?âÂ
âYouâre serious,â you check. Remus has the opportunity to make a joke here, but he worries itâd only confuse you more.Â
âI am,â he says.Â
âBut youâre so handsome.â
Another laugh startles out of him. âAnd what do you think you are? Of course,â he gives your knuckles another brief peck just to see your eyes flare again, âI would love you no matter how you looked, but youâre a far cry from hideous yourself.âÂ
You look taken aback by this news as well. Remus is half tempted to find you a mirror.Â
Then you ask, voice soft as down feathers, âYou love me?âÂ
Something in Remusâ chest goes all warm and mushy. âI do,â he says sincerely. âI love you so much, sweetheart, sometimes I donât know what to do with it all.âÂ
You smile until your eyelashes kiss, and he canât resist cupping your face again, smoothing his thumb along the skin of your cheek.Â
âSo thatâs why youâre here?â you ask.Â
âWell,â he hesitates, âyes, but Iâm also here because I work here.âÂ
Your eyebrows raise. Your gaze dips to his white coat as if remembering it for the first time in a while. âOh. Youâre a doctor and my boyfriend?âÂ
âThatâs right.â He squints at you amusedly. âDid you think I just snuck in here in a white coat so I could see you?âÂ
âMy boyfriend is a doctor.â You donât seem to be talking to anyone in particular, perhaps just asking the universe for confirmation.Â
Remus decides to get back to business. âRight again, dove. I think itâs about time we get you to your room, yeah? Anything else I can do for you, anything you need?âÂ
âNope.â You lay your head back on the pillow, looking somehow more dazed than when heâd come in. âI think Iâm set. Like, probably for life.â
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THE GALA - A Clone Dating Sim
You are a Jedi General. The Council has assigned you a very important mission: the infiltration of a Separatist gala on Raxus. But you will not be going alone--you are allowed to bring a date on this adventure. In the heart of enemy territory, who will you count on to watch your back?
PLAY HERE: THE GALA
Ideal play experience is on desktop! (I think you can play on mobile it just looks a lil yuccy)
Clone bbs x Fem!Jedi player FEATURED CLONES: Sergeant Hunter, Tech, Crosshair, Wrecker, Captain Rex, Commander Wolffe, and ARC Twins Fives & Echo
RATING: 18+ MINORS DNI - The paths can be SFW or NSFW depending on your choices (2nd option is always the NSFW one!) - general warning for smut if you make those choices, more specifics below the cut!
Additional (less relevant) info beneath the cut!
HAPPY MAY 4TH! ENJOY MY LOVES~~
COMPREHENSIVE WARNINGS LIST: In general, lots of flirting, innuendo, pet names. Established relationship for all
Hunter: LOTS of flirting (he is a whore), p in v sex
Tech: Oral (f receiving)
Crosshair: Fingering
Wrecker: Not much for him honestly, implied canoodling (p in v), oblivious boy âĽ
Captain Rex: dirty talk, praise, oral (m! Receiving)
Commander Wolffe: rough! p in v
Fives & Echo: Multiple clones (no clonec*st), lots of flirting, Echo is self conscious!
-ART ASSETS I drew all of the Clone art! I found the most nakedest screencap I could of any of them (SURPRISINGLY DIFFICULT) and then traced the base, then looked for Star Wars Male Fashion (WAY FUCKING HARDER) to draw on them and dress them up! I think for Hunter and Fives/Echo I just went crazy but for all the rest lmk if u can spot who I stole the outfits from, i deadass dont remember at this point For Background art I found them all on google images - from what I recall, it's mostly concept art and screenshots from games! -ENGINE I made this in Twine, an incredible tool for making text-based games! I highly recommend looking into it. It's really easy to use and there are a ton of tutorials online!
AN: Thank you so much for playing! Please let me know what you think, I had so much fun making thisâ¨â¨ it is so phenomenally cringe but I hope you all enjoy ⼠(also if you spot any bugs or typos, please feel free to let me know and I will fix!!)
TELL ME YOUR FAVORITE PATH I like Rex Crosshair Wrecker the best I think
"""taglist""" - @shinyshayminflower @starrylothcat @pb-jellybeans @jediknightjana
#tbb x reader#the bad batch x reader#star wars x reader#w6fic#wrecker x reader#hunter x reader#tech x reader#crosshair x reader#captain rex x reader#rex x reader#wolffe x reader#echo x reader#fives x reader#clone dating sim#fem!reader#i hope u enjoy playin as much as i enjoyed making :)#idk what else to tag this fr#the bad batch#captain rex
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Spoiled - A.H
a/n: felt feral writing this hope y'all enjoy it as much as i did
think im ovulating or something YALL IDK
anyhow happy reading let me know what yall think đ¤
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pairings: aaron hotchner x fem!reader
summary: in which hotch overhears your conversation with penelope and decides to do something about it
warnings: 18+ MDNI, phone sex!, sex toy!, fem solo masturbation, penelope being a little instigator lmao, dirty talk, soft dom!hotch, established relationship, honestly a little bit of angst whoops, reader is slightly dramatic like hotch has been gone for prob 5 hours STAND UP!
wc: 3.3k
"Penelope Grace Garcia!"
Her comment earned her the full government name, igniting a burst of laughter that you attempt to smother behind your hand. Sinking deeper into the couch, you dismiss the absurdity with a shake of your head. You even find yourself glancing over your shoulder even though you know no one is home.
"You know, I really shouldn't be telling you this, but trust me, that's the least of our worries in this relationship."
"Look, whatever floats your love boat or rocks your bed frame is strictly your business," she comments as if that were the most casual thing to say.
You giggle, a warmth spreading through you as you tread across the kitchen tiles, the phone pressed against your ear.Â
"Oh my god, Pen," you let out a laugh, feeling a soft crimson spread across your cheeks, while your thighs swell with the thoughts of your doting boyfriend. "No, no, like I said we're more than okay in that department. It just gets, well, lonely when he's away."
Your hand curls around the neck of your favorite bottle of red, easing the cork free with a satisfying pop. The liquid swirls into the glass, a little more than probably necessary, as the gentle hiss of water beginning to simmer breaks through the kitchen.Â
"You, my dear, are a saint among mortals."
"Well, he makes it easy," you shrug, pouring the rice into the bubbling pot, a cloud of steam rising to paint the windows.
"Honestly, I don't know how you manage. I'd be itching for it, especially if it's as good as you say," Penelope admits with a dramatic sigh.
You laugh, propping the phone against the backsplash, its speaker projecting the conversation into the room. Aaron stands just out of sight, unnoticed, taking in your every syllable.
"When he gets back, trust me, every second apart seems like a small price to pay."
"Ever thought about getting yourself a toy? You know, for those long nights?" Penelope hints not (at all) so slyly.Â
The wine almost sprays from your mouth as you stifle a surprised splutter. Aaron, still unseen, raises an eyebrow.
"Oh, um, no, I haven't really considered... a toy," you murmur, cheeks burning. You clear your throat, pretending to be engrossed in the simmering pot. "Aaron might have an opinion on that, I guess."
Your attempt at nonchalance was failing, you definitely knew that.
Aaron rested casually against the door frame, a soft smile touching his lips at the sound of your bashful laughter. He'd always had a soft spot for the way your cheeks bloom with color--a sight he wasn't afraid to go great lengths to witness. The idea of a toy seemed to pique his curiosity, drawing a pensive frown as his attention stayed fixed on you for a moment longer.
He slips away silently, his steps carrying him to the front door as you continue your conversation with Penelope.
The call disconnects with a soft click, and you're left in the quiet of the kitchen, unwittingly promising to keep Penelope updated. Turning back to the stove, you stir the sauce with a distracted hand, your lips downturned. Aaron should have been home by now.
The dining table is set, candles flickering, their glow falling on the chair he's yet to fill. You let out a sigh, stealing another look at the ticking clock. The food is ready, but with each passing minute, it grows cooler, just the unfamiliar feeling of disappointment settling in your chest.Â
The audible twist of the key catches your attention, and you can't help but glance over your shoulder. Aaron walks in, his lips curving into a smile upon seeing you.
"Hi, my gorgeous girl," he greets, his voice a familiar sound that kindles a familiar flutter into your heart.
He places his briefcase down, the sound muted, and as he approaches, his lips brush a tender kiss against your temple. The annoyance that had been bubbling inside you melts away with his touch. Damn him.
You turn to him, a sheepish "Hi" fluttering out, your cheeks tinged with heat. It's a feeling that's always fresh, the way he still makes you feel like you're back in high school, hearts doodled in the margins of your notebook.
Aaron settles into his chair, the soft scrape of wood against the tile following his movements.
"Sorry 'M late," he offers, his tone warm, appreciative. "Everything looks and smells wonderful, honey. Thank you."
His fingers gently sweep a loose strand of hair from your face, his smile softening you, disarming you. He's so beautiful.
"You're welcome," you reply, your cheeks growing warmer with each word. "And, um, I hope it's okay. It might be a bit cold. I thought...I guess I assumed you'd be home sooner."
You voice trails off, leaving behind a trail of embarrassed concern, wondering if perhaps you'd somehow overstepped.Â
Aaron looks at you, his eyes turning kind as he discerns the unease on your face.
"I'm sorry, baby, got held up with a little errand." He bites into the food, and a gratified hum indicates his approval. "This is delicious."
You find yourself beaming at the praise. He had a talent for that--praising you, almost as if he'd made it his life mission. This was a first for you in a relationship, and it's exactly why the late nights and time spent alone didn't weigh so heavily.Â
After dinner, you're rinsing off the plates when Aaron's hands draw you close, his hands claiming your waist, the heat of his palms radiating through the fabric of your shirt. He plants a soft kiss on your shoulder.
"Let me help with that. You're spoiling me," he insists, his words spoken into your damp skin.
You lean back into his embrace, his chest flush against your back.
"I like taking care of you," you admit, heart skipping a beat under the weight of his gaze, the softness in his eyes dissolving your concentration on the task at hand.Â
A deep, affectionate groan escapes Aaron as he pulls you even closer. But all good things come to an end, and the ringing of his phone seems like an icy intrusion, like a sudden draft into the kitchen.
"Hotchner," he answers, and even though the word leaves his lips, his fingers gently sketch patterns across your hip.Â
You feel your heart sink. When he hangs up, his eyes lock with yours, brimming with an apology he doesn't voice. It's unnecessary, you already know.
"A case?" You hate how small your voice sounds, dipped in an understanding you wish you didn't have.
He nods, a simple stupid gesture that sends a lump of disappointment soaring up your throat, which you desperately try to swallow down.Â
"Okay... just, be careful, okay? I'll miss you."
"And I'll miss you, angel. Be good for me."
There's a hollowness in the house that follows you through each room. You were well aware of Aaron's demanding job when you started dating--the unpredictable schedule, the sudden departures, the cases that required his immediate attention. Still, this awareness did nothing to soften to sting of his absence. At all.Â
You found yourself wandering aimlessly, picking up a book only to set it down unread, starting a movie but not really watching. Eventually, you ended up in the bedroom, his bedroom, where the subtle scent of his cologne lingers. It's both comforting and heart-wrenching. God, you felt like you were being so dramatic.
You climb into the bed, the sheets cool against your skin, too big and empty without him. Your eyes darts to the phone resting on the nightstand. You've always been careful not to disturb him while he's working, but tonight felt different.
With a trembling hand, you pick up the phone, your thumb hovering indecisively over the screen. Reluctantly, you returned it to its place. There was no point in bothering him.
A sudden draft sent a shiver up your spine, reminding you of the blanket Hotch had bought for you a couple months ago. You sighed, rising from the bed and moving to the closet.
But your eyes skipped over the blanket, instead fixating on a shiny pink bag tucked away in a secluded corner. Compelled by a spike of curiosity, you grabbed the bag and pulled it open. Your eyes widened, cheeks burning with a sudden flush as you placed it on the bed. How long had this been hiding here? And the timing--just after your conversation with Penelope--felt almost too uncanny.Â
You went back to your phone.
Hi
The message was simple. You hit send before you can second-guess yourself.
Almost immediately, your phone vibrated--Aaron's name illuminated the screen. You answer, and his voice was there, infused with immediate concern.
"Hi honey. You okay?" His question was straightforward, cutting through the noise.
You nodded, forgetting for a moment he couldn't see you. Shifting on the bed, you said softly, "Um, yeah, I'm fine. I didn't mean to bother you. Is it a bad time?"
His response is quick. "You could never bother me."
A blush flares on your cheeks, and a smile instinctively forms. You fidget on the bed, the sheets sighing with your movements, sounds that don't escape Aaron's attentive detection.
"Can't seem to find the right spot without me there, huh?"
"I can't seem to do a lot of things without you here," you grumble under your breath, intended more for yourself than for him. The bed emits a soft creak as you turn again, your breath hitching in a pout that he can almost see through the phone. "Aaron, I found something in the closet..."
You lost your words, fingertips tracing the toy's edge, as you fumbled with the strings of your shorts.
"Hmm? Care to enlighten me."
"You know."
You weren't in the mood for his teasing, because you knew he knew. You could sense his smugness, his voice dripping into that familiar, velvety register that prompted your lips to purse.
"I don't know, sweetheart."
Once again, you found yourself stirring against the linen, nibbling on your lip as a wave of exasperation washed over you, your eyes rolling into their sockets.
"Where are you?"
"Just got to my hotel room." You could hear the subtle movements in the background, accompanied by the soft groans of the mattress under his weight. "What did you find in the closet that was so urgent you needed to text me in the middle of my case?"
Your face was warm. "You said it wasn't a bother."
"And I meant it, now spell it out for me."
Your hands cautiously pushed over the toy, examining its buttons and sides. Subconsciously, your tongue swept over your top teeth. You lowered your voice as though someone else might overhear.
"The toy...is it for me? I mean, I would hope so. If not, well, we'd have a rather awkward issue."
"Yes, it's for you, baby."
You stifled a grin. How could he have known? That profiling business was really no joke.
"Why?"
His muffled chuckle filtered through, and you could almost see the flash of his pearly whites. You really missed him, so much so that you were conjuring vision of his mouth of his on places that should not be said aloud.Â
"I just want to make sure my best girl is taken care of when I'm not home." You could practically hear the smirk on his lips.
You were deep in your fantasy now, your free hand sliding down your shorts as you envisioned him propped against the headboard of his hotel bed, tie hanging loosely, hair tousled just so.
"I'm always taken care of by you, Aaron," you said quietly.
You didn't know how to go about this, whatever this even was. You were treading into unknown territory; never having had phone sex with Aaron--or anyone for that matter. It was a far cry from the occasional suggestive text.
"That's right." His voice flowed like honey in your ear, causing a shiver as your finger skimmed over your underwear, your breathing momentarily faltering. "You're going to be well taken care of for the rest of your life, yeah?"
"Yeah."
You could hardly breathe, squirming against your own touch, glancing over at the toy that sat beside your hip.
"I want you to know how much I appreciate your patience. You're a good girl, honey. Far too good for me."Â You weren't. It was the other way around; you didn't deserve him. You told yourself that every day. "I know you get lonely, and I know it's something you'd never admit to."
"Aaron..."
He didn't let you finish. "Why don't you tell me what you're doing right now?"
Your actions came to an abrupt standstill, thumb suspended above your clothed clit. You entertained the thought that this FBI gig might have been a front for a psychic, maybe one of those fortune teller types.
You were mumbling into your sleeve, a private conversation with the threads. "Just...um, well it's hardly worth mentioning, honestly."
Wow you're sure you fooled him.
"I'm not fond of dishonesty." The low rumble of his voice sent a tremor through your core. "I'm giving you a final chance. Tell me what you're doing, sweetheart."
A hard swallow passed your throat, your thumb rubbing idle circles into the band of flesh on your hip.Â
"Well, I, uh, was touching myself." The words felt as awkward as they sounded, an internal wince accompanying each syllable at how unsexy you were speaking.
"Where, sweetheart?"
You exhaled sharply at the question, heavy with exasperation at his insistence on drawing this out. But the slickness between your legs was undeniable. Your hand slid back to the delicate skin between your thighs.
"Aaron, please," you breathed out so faintly it was almost inaudible.
He was playing a cruel game, and he knew it. You hardly cussed let alone talk about your lady parts so openly.
"I hope I've never given you a reason to feel judged, honey." There was a sweetness in his voice that masked his darker intentions. "Just tell me where. I want to help."
Your tongue flicked nervously across your lip, your finger dipping into the valley of your folds as you mulled over his offer. You were wet, far more than you had anticipated, practically coating your thighs in the process.
"No, 'course not," you said softly, biting back a sigh as your thumb worked slowly against your inflamed clit. "It's just, you're so far, Aaron."
"Why do you think I got you that toy?" Your gaze darted to the pink thing, resting against your hip. "I want you to use it. I'll walk you through it, just like I would in person."
You could melt. You could liquefy into nothingness on the spot. Your fingers pressed more urgently against yourself, a deep-seated wish for him to be here surfacing, knowing all the while it was a baseless hope.
"Okay."
"Okay?"
"Yeah, okay."
"There you go, that's my girl."
You couldn't hold back the whimper that fell from your lips as you arched against the bed, fingers diving into your cunt.
"My needy girl," he repeated, his laughter resonating with a patronizing tone that oddly egged you on. "Alright, can you pick up the toy for me?"
You wedged the phone snugly between your shoulder and ear, your hand closing around the pink, curved object, scrutinizing its every detail with careful eyes.
"Okay."
It was big, not as big as Aaron, but its dimensions were nonetheless imposing. You felt your chest heave in anticipation, waiting for his instructions.
His silence was stretching your patience thin. You turned it on, and it came to life, watching as it vibrated, the soft buzz permeating the space. You let it trail over your stomach, fabric gathering as your shirt rode up. Nearing your clit, you braced, taking in a quick breath.
But that breath was released in a strangled moan as you pushed the toy firmly into your sopping hole, legs spreading expansively as a taut sensation gripped your center.
"Did I say you could use it already?" he questioned, his tongue clicking in disapproval as you strained against the device, the second prong vibrations coursing against your nub, your whole-body jerking in response.
"N-No, 'M sorry," you panted, your focus narrowing as you pushed to toy in and out, your lips rounding into an 'o'. "It feels really good, Aar."
"I'm sure it does, baby," he teased, his voice carrying a certainty that your own lacked. "Let me hear you fuck yourself with it.
You loved hearing him curse, it was rare, and usually reserved for intimate moments like this. It fueled your actions, your wrist quickening, driving the device deeper, your stomach twisting in tight knots, a loud moan escaping unrestrained, suddenly you were thankful for the distance between Aaron's house and the next.
It felt so good, and yet somehow still not comparable to how it was with Aaron. Weren't you spoiled?
"Miss you so much," you slurred, your movements stuttering as the device worked your body in ways you didn't know were possible.
"Miss you too, angel. You're doing so good."
"Can you, ah, come home, p-please?"
You weren't even sure of what you were saying, all your thoughts on chasing your high and pretending the toy was Aaron's cock. Thinking about how he'd fill you up right now, how he'd press you to the mattress, how his body would cover yours.
"Your present isn't enough?" His tone was taunting, your eyes welling with tears, clouding your vision as your hips bucked against the toy. "That's a shame, sweetheart, think maybe you've been a little spoiled. You can't have my cock all the time."
You were completely dazed, his sentences barely making their way through the fog as you'd like them to. You were crying, you think, hot and relentless tears carving a path down your face as you fucked yourself harder against the toy.
The noises coming from your pussy were obscene, soaked and squishing as you tried to respond to Aaron, but nothing but small hiccups were escaping your mouth.
"It's okay, baby, I know. You're doing so good for me. I can hear it."
Your cheeks and ears flared with a heat that spelled out your shame, but it was the least of your concerns. Your walls tightened against the device, the pressure on your clit suddenly all too much and not enough at the same time. Gasping for air, your breaths came out in uneven bursts. When you tried to call out Aaron's name, it emerged as nothing more than a choked sob.
"C-Can I? Please, need to so bad." You weren't entirely convinced you were speaking English, but Aaron understood.Â
"Go ahead, sweetheart."
That was all you needed. Your cunt contracted again before vaulting over the edge, nearly losing consciousness in the process, a string of moans and half-said words pouring out of your lips.
You could hear the sound of his voice, but the words were just out of reach, not fully making sense. You felt your body twitch, and you blinked deliberately, once, twice, three times, in an effort to reconnect your body to your mind.
"You're so good, baby. So good. Miss you so much."
You pulled the toy, now soaked, from yourself, cringing at the lewd sound as you laid it beside you, making a mental note to wash the sheets later. Although if Aaron had his way that wouldn't happen.
"I miss you." You hated the way your voice betrayed ever emotion you had.
"Need you to go pee for me, sweetheart."
He sounded so soft and tired, but somehow still present. You let out a soft snicker as you curled onto your side.Â
"Can't move my legs," you mumbled, the sound muffled by the way your cheek was squished into the pillow. "Need you to come carry me."
His laugh was something you wished you could bottle up. "Spoiled."
"And who's to blame for that?" You were ready for his witty retort, but it was cut short by the sudden flash of your phone. You squinted at the caller ID. "Sorry, Penelope is calling me, can I call you back in a second?"
"Course, honey. Thank her for the idea, yeah?" Your mouth fell open as you scrambled for the right words. Of course he had heard. "Also, I plan on spending a few solid hours fucking you when I get home, so I suggest you get some rest."
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once again debating trying out another program
#the bin#hated krita. just doesnt work for me. firealpaca is genuinely great but i think i need something with a bit more to it#not even for the stuff i post. i havent posted any of the art im struggling to make in firealpaca bc im just unhappy with it#maybe i just need to lean the program better but i honestly dont wanna put in effort to learn a program that doesnt have a lot of features#thats what i like about firealpaca most is its a very simple easy to use program#well idk what one to try out. i think ill maybe give a free trial if some less expensive ones a go and see how i like it#firealpaca is dear to me weirdly. idk. i just remember making really shitty art and animations with it when i was 11 on my touch screen#laptop and it feels happy that im making so much better stuff with it now. i wanna learn to animate properly but im not good at it#i havent been drawing much lately bc my room is a mess but im gonna clean it today so hopefully that mostly fixes it#once my sister moves out i should be back to normal. i miss drawing all the time :/#sorry im rambling here again. nobody cares abt this lol. but ig nobody sees these usually anyway so it doesnt matter
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What are the questions you hate??
Okay so I donât really HATE anything (so far) but how bout an FAQ? There are some asks Iâm kind of tired of answering lol. Such as;
⢠âFEED MEâ For one thing, itâs not even an ask đ So I donât love this energy, itâs -2 charm for me. Whilst Iâm grateful that folks really like the art I share (like SUPER GRATEFUL!!) I am not particularly enchanted by a demanding aura
⢠âwhen is ____ coming outâ? The answer is always âI donât knowâ because I draw for FUN and I draw in my FREE TIME and that varies. So for the foreseeable future, unless I EXPLICITLY state otherwise, you can expect my next post to appear on your screen whenever I post it đĽ°đ
⢠âwhat programs do you useâ? I donât have a problem AT ALL with inquiring minds, I just get this ask a lot and Iâve already answered it a few times (for the inquisitive minds, please consider checking the tag âanswersâ on this blog to find information. Iâll tag this âfaqâ) Anyway, I use pens, paper, my iPad, Apple Pencil, and Procreate. I often use brush packs made by Shiyoon Kim and Kyle Webster. I find brush packs on the creative market as well. wanna learn Clip Studio Paint, but havenât gotten to it.
⢠âadvice on improving in drawingâ? This is a beautiful question, and Iâm happy there are people who want to improve their drawing skills! I am one of you. I frequently use âYouTube universityâ where I will find drawing focused channels that teach you this very thing. Andrew Loomis books on drawing are like textbooks that break down the fundamentals really effectively. Like any skill, you have to research, study, and practice. The more you do of each, the better you will get. Iâm trying my best to improve and master the craft eventually. (A foolâs errand haha) anyway, have fun!
⢠âcan I fandub thisâ? The answer is yes!! And I hope you have a lot of fun!!! Please credit me and no monetizing. đĽ°
⢠âcan I make fanfiction/fanart/cosplay based on your fanart?â FUCK YEAHHHHHH!!! I LOVE people being creative. Weâre all having fun in this fandom and I think it makes life more exciting when we create! Same with fandubs, please credit and no monetizing đĽ°
⢠âdo you do commissionsâ? I am not accepting any right now, but that can change! Please trust that if/when I do start taking commissions, I will be letting yâall know!! And I really appreciate that youâd want to commission me đĽšâĽď¸
⢠âin your comic, will ____ happen?â Iâm not just gonna TELL you that lol. But clarifying whatâs ALREADY happened is always a welcomed ask :)
I just want to thank everyone who tunes into this blog!! I really have a great time creating fanart, fanfiction, and comics and Iâm VERY SHOCKED that what Iâve made has had the reception it has. Itâs fun to be in this fandom with you all!
THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO SENDS ME SWEET ENCOURAGING MESSAGES ILYYY đĽšđđđđđ
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For KBD asks. Maybe pregnant! Reader and Steve are able to have a little babymoon with just the two of them and heâs just super sweet and lovey dovey with reader đđ love your writing!!
KBD âyou and Steve spend some rare time alone. mom!reader
You thought going on vacation three weeks before your due date was one, misguided, and two, more pain than it was worth, but Steve insisted it would be relaxing and youâd figured why not. He deserves a vacation.Â
You wished youâd done this for every baby, now.Â
âWhat a beautifully huge bump.âÂ
You donât feel beautiful, huge is allowed. âThanks.âÂ
âYouâre welcome.âÂ
You and Steve lay lakeside, just a couple hours from home. He passes you a glass wet with condensation, a drink youâre sharing, your turn to sip at the slushy insides.Â
âIt really is ginormous,â you say after a sip. Itâs not horrifying or alien or anything people love to say of big baby bumps, but it is heavy. Perhaps not as beautiful as you wish, but doing a good job. You hold your stomach. In half a moment, the baby stirs.Â
âAny further along for names?â
With three girls at home and a fourth drawing near, youâve not thought about it much. There are other urgent matters to attend to, dance classes, crayons, a new bassinet, a new rocker, a new everything that Steve had to build. Youâve been trying to make sure everybody in the family is happy, including Steve, which hasnât left much time just for you.Â
The babymoon was a great idea. Steve is a genius, ten times as thoughtful as he thinks he is.
âNot one,â you say.Â
âWell, youâll think of something.âÂ
âCan you come and kiss me?â You turn your face to point at the soft skin under your jaw. âRight here?âÂ
Steve lays like a dead body in his chair. Boneless, he turns his head away from you, then slowly back. âOh, sorry, are you talking to me? You wouldnât really make your gorgeous husband get up again when heâs only just laid down, right?âÂ
âAs opposed to what, gorgeous husband?â you ask mildly. âYou want me to get up?âÂ
Youâre lucky you can still move. Bump is huge and hurting. Every step you take hurts both your ankles and your spine.Â
Steve sighs like heâs in pain, but he gets up. He crosses the step to your lounger, and kneels down beside it. âWhere did you want it?â he asks, his breaths throwing goosebumps down your arms.Â
âWherever you wanna put it.âÂ
âI could kiss all over you,â he says, bringing his turned hand to your cheek, flat of his nail caressing your cheek. âDonât tempt me.âÂ
He moves his hand to the other cheek, furthest from him, and holds your face, giving you a firm squeeze. Itâs not intimidating, the opposite, like a silent I got you as he turns your face away and leans in.Â
âHere?â he asks against the place youâd pointed.Â
You laugh, taking a fistful of his soft hair. âStop, youâre tickling me.âÂ
âYou asked for this.âÂ
âI asked for a kiss.âÂ
âRight.â He kisses you in the place youâd pointed originally.Â
âThis is really nice.âÂ
âYeah?âÂ
âNot just the kiss. This vacation.â You brush your fingers through his hair.Â
âI wish weâd known about it before. I love our girls, butâŚâÂ
But this is the first time you and Steve have been alone together for a long, long time, the first time youâve ever been completely alone with your new baby. You canât forget how much you love Steve, but itâs a great reassurance to be here and remember that youâre good together. Youâre a family unit, but youâre also just Y/N and Steve.Â
âI miss spending time with you,â Steve says. âI know this is the worst time to say it, but we need to spend more time together, just you and me.âÂ
You turn into his hand. âNo, I get it,â you whisper.
It doesnât need to be said how much you love your kids, isnât that what youâre thinking day in and day out? You love them, you take care of them, itâs a full time job. And yet this time without them feels rare and priceless at once. Itâs not a great time to realise it when youâre about to have a newborn and absolutely no free time, but itâs okay. You can make it work.Â
Steve wraps his arms around you, forcing you forward to embrace you tightly. You're quick to hug back.Â
âIâll never get over you,â he says.Â
ââMagine we never met.âÂ
âI donât want to.âÂ
âI canât think about it without you⌠doesnât make any sense.âÂ
âIt doesnât make sense, weâre the only right way.â He smiles into your cheek.Â
âI really canât picture my life without you.âÂ
Steve draws back. He canât look at you with any more softness than he does then, even as his lips turn into a smirky grin. âYou donât need to. And letâs not! Itâs exhausting, I just wanna lay in the sun with you, listen to the sound of the lake.âÂ
âAre your knees hurting?âÂ
Youâve just remembered heâs kneeling in shorts on the wooden dock. Steve laughs. âWho cares about my knees? Come on, Iâm having another kiss.âÂ
âSays who?â you ask.Â
He tips your chin up.Â
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I'll Be Your Temporary Fix
Paige Bueckers x Media Team Reader
Based on this request:Â
'Could you do a Paige x media team reader. Where Paige and reader are fake dating because Azzi is uncomfortable with the fans shipping her and Paige. Reader does it cus she owes Paige a favor (you can make something up).'
Word Count: 2.3k
I absolutely loved this request! There will be a second part posted in a few days.
Thanks for reading!
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You look up from your camera as the sounds of an argument cut through the bouncing of basketballs and squeaking of sneakers against the floor of the gym.Â
Azzi and Paige are at it again.
This was not the first time you had seen them sniping at each other this past week, and sure it was concerning. They were best friends.Â
What could possibly be the issue?
Being the head of the media team for the womenâs basketball team at UConn meant you had formed some very close friendships with the girls. Today, you were attempting to finish filming shots of this week's practices to post on Instagram. The new season was soon beginning, and it was crucial that the rest of the world was able to see what you saw in these girls. However, that was proving to be a challenge with the incessant bickering coming from Paige and Azzi.
âCâmonnn, just please go ask her,â Azzi whines loudly, looking over in your direction. You frown, confused as to why their arguing would have anything to do with you.Â
âI canât just ask her to do that. Sheâs too nice, and you know itâll make her feel all weirded out!â Paige retorts, equally as loud.
They really were not subtle.
As practice ends, you put away your equipment, feeling Paigeâs eyes on you. Looking up, you see Azzi retreating back in the direction of the locker room, with Paige slowly sauntering towards you looking nervous.Â
That was odd. Paige never really looks nervous. She was smug as hell, pretty much always. It was something you envied and admired.
âGood job today, P,â you say as she comes to stand in front of you, eliciting a broad grin that caused your belly to do several happy flips.
âThanks, gotta have someone to show off for,â she responds with a wink and laugh. She continues after a beat, âListen, I have a weird request and feel free to say no, but I kinda promised Azzi I would ask.â
You nod for her to continue, wondering what the blonde could possibly need from you.
âThe fans are kinda obsessed with the idea that me and Azzi are in a relationship, and Azzi is super uncomfortable with it. She has a bit of a crush on one of the guys on the menâs team, and even he thinks weâre together.â
Your eyebrows furrow at the information, trying to process what she was saying.Â
âOkayâŚso how do I fit into all this?â you ask puzzledly.
Paige bites her bottom lip apprehensively, âwell we thought maybe if the fans saw me with someone else, theyâd forget about âPazziâ.â
You look at her blankly. âWait, me?â you ask. âYou want to pretend to date me?â
âOnly if you want to. We just thought itâd be a good idea. The fans love you, youâre actually gay, and youâre not exactly bad looking,â Paige mutters the last bit, causing you to turn a bright shade of pink.Â
This was certainly not a good idea. It was a terrible one.
You had harbored secret feelings for Paige since showing up day one with your camera and a head full of ideas.Â
Pretending to date Paige Bueckers was a surefire way to fall head over heels, and that was something you had spent a generous amount of time trying to avoid.Â
You sigh, going over the pros and cons in your head.
âPleaseee,â Paige pouts, drawing out the syllables dramatically. âYa know, you kinda owe me. I did introduce you to Steph Curry that one timeâŚâ
Your eyes narrow at that. She really decided to pull that card. âFine,â you clip, in a way that was more hesitant than you actually felt.Â
Paige throws herself against you in a joyous hug, whooping loudly in your ear. You giggle at her antics.
âThank you so, so much. I promise Imma be the best fake girlfriend youâve ever had! Why donât you come over tonight, and we can start planning,â she smirks excitedly.
You agree and go your separate ways, your stomach already rolling at the idea of doing anything romantic with the tall blonde.Â
Later, you walk towards the door to Paigeâs apartment feeling thoroughly fucked. You had gone over every scenario in your head just about a million times since your conversation earlier. Your pessimistic disposition could not see this ending well.Â
The noise levels were alarming, and as you peered your head around the corner of the door, you saw multiple girls from the team lounging on Paigeâs couch. They whoop as you make your presence known, feeling grateful for a buffer. Sure, you loved being alone with Paige, but the idea of having to feign intimacy was so foreign. You weren't sure if you were capable of that.
âSheâs here, P,â Azzi shouts towards Paigeâs bedroom door, causing her to quickly emerge with a shy smile.Â
âI hope you don't mind, but I figured we could go live with the girls tonight and get these rumors rolling,â Paige explains to you.Â
âCourse not,â you respond breezily, wanting to keep up an air of indifference. You secretly hoped everyone else thought you were chill and not at all dying at the thought of people thinking you and Paige were together.
Azzi gets up from her spot to stand next to you. âThank you so much for doing this. Itâs not going to bother you, is it? People talking about you?â She has the eyes of a puppy dog, and you immediately feel better agreeing to the scheme.
âNah, nothing really bothers me,â you shrug noncommittally. âExcept having to fake intimacy with the person I want most,â you add in your head bitterly.
Considering it was Ice who was live the last time shit had gone down with Paige and Azzi, everyone thought it would be hilarious for her to do it once more. It was so fitting.
KK, Ice, and Azzi were sitting on the couch in the living room of the apartment, leaving you and Paige the small armchair in the corner. It felt like something out of a cheesy movie. The girls giggle as you realize that you both cannot comfortably sit side by side in the chair, your cheeks aflame once more as you put the pieces together in your head. Paige takes a seat first, basically manspreading, as she does, before patting her lap tantalizingly.Â
Shit.Â
Before you can protest, Paige is grabbing your hand and pulling you to sit down on your lap. Her muscular arms circle your waist in a way that has your pulse racing instantaneously. Despite her skinny build, she is so fucking comfortable, and she pulls you towards her chest, encouraging you to melt into her body. This had to look natural to work.
Satisfied with your positions, Paige gives Ice the green light to start the live with a nod.Â
âHey yâall, whatâs everyone up to?â Ice begins, giving you and Paige a sly nod. You struggle to hold back a snort at the absurdity of the situation youâd gotten yourself into.Â
KK, Azzi, and Ice take turns answering questions, showing off the tiktok dances theyâve been practicing and being straight-up obnoxious. After 10 minutes of sitting on Paigeâs lap, the lack of action was making you feel antsy. The unknown of what was coming was eating at your anxieties.
Suddenly, KK reads out âWe wanna see Paige,â causing her to dramatically flip the phone toward where the two of you were nestled together. Paige gives a wave, smiling smugly, as if she could see the faces of the fans already.
Feeling shy all of a sudden, you bury your face in Paigeâs neck, trying to disappear from the camera and the hooting girls holding it. You try to ignore the way Paige lets out a tiny moan as your lips accidentally meet the pale, smooth skin. You think youâd spend the rest of your life wanting to pull that noise out of her lips again.Â
Ice grabs her phone back out of KKâs grasp and continues asking questions, as if nothing had happened. You let out a breath, and come up for air, looking around at the girls.Â
Azzi looks pleased, watching the comments carefully and gauging the reaction of Paigeâs loyal, and extremely passionate, fans. Out of reach from the camera, she sends an enthusiastic thumbs up, signaling that the first phase of the plan was a success. You just didnât realize how successful it would end up being.Â
Phase two was deemed âProject Bow Bow Bowâ by KK. You had protested, saying, âwhat the hell does that even mean?â KK had just shrugged, so you went along with it.Â
It was decided that you and Paige had to be seen in public together, showing considerable amounts of PDA. âYa gotta really sell it,â the girls had said with a laugh. Again, you just went along with it, but the idea of people seeing you with someone so loved by the public terrified you. What if people thought you werenât good enough for Paige?Â
Foregoing your usual bar, Paige decides a house party would be a more intimate place to delude the UConn students into your fake relationship. Trusting Paige to take the reins, you accompanied her into a colossal, and if you were being honest, ostentatious, house just outside of the universityâs campus. Your eyes widened at the stately staircase, its grandeur diminished by the drunk students already perched upon it. The noise of the house pounded through your ears, almost distracting you from the way Paige had intertwined your fingers together, rubbing soothing circles onto the top of your small hand. It was blissful.
The tall blonde leads you past hoards of students through the house. Youâre too busy avoiding the looks youâre earning to question how Paige knows her way around so well.
A tall and muscular guy bumps into you, causing you to stumble in the heeled boots you wore. Paige glares at the kid, eyebrows furrowing harshly, and removes her hand from yours to wrap protectively around your waist. She pulls you in, making sure you are fine before continuing to lead you into the kitchen.Â
âWant a drink?â Paige asks, leaning into you, struggling to converse over the pounding noise of the bass.
You nod, grateful to have something to dull your overwhelmed senses. Paige pours you a drink, making you wince at the amount of vodka that ends up in your cup. She holds the cup to your lips, encouraging you to tentatively sip the beverage. You welcome the burn that slides down your throat, settling into a warm pool in your belly that makes you feel more relaxed in seconds.Â
As the kitchen fills up with numerous people, all looking for refills, you and Paige take solace in a sitting area in a more closed off area of the house. You are pulled onto her lap once more, a wink reassuring you that everything was going to plan.
You talk over the noise of the party, faces close together. One of Paigeâs hands settles on your inner thigh, almost possessively. She rubs slow, teasing circles onto the sensitive flesh, the pressure deepening in a way that had you holding back moans of pleasure.
âI-I gotta run to the backroom. Be back in a sec,â you stutter, feeling suddenly appreciative that the darkness of the party hides your blush. Before Paige can even respond, you shoot off her lap, and run to the bathroom.Â
It takes a few tries to actually find the bathroom, accidentally walking on several horny couples getting it on in random rooms. As you lock the bathroom door, you sigh and slide onto the floor, feeling overloaded with the fake intimacy. It had been awhile since you had dated anyone, and stress of it all was starting to get to you.Â
You had to get it together. Taking a few deep breaths and giving yourself a pep talk, you walk back out into the chaos of the party. As you find your way back to where you and Paige had been sitting, you see some girl talking to her. Jealousy settles into you, before remembering you had a role to play; you were actually allowed to stake your claim on Paige.
Walking up to the two girls, you plaster a sultry smile to your face and take a seat back on Paigeâs lap as if it belonged to you. Paigeâs eyes widened in surprise; this week she had initiated nearly every touch between you two. Little did you know, she was secretly very pleased at this new behavior, arms immediately wrapping around you once more.Â
Without saying anything, the girl rolls her eyes and walks away You try desperately to keep up the act of nonchalance; the smirk that crawls over your face ruins it real fast.Â
No one bothers you the rest of the night, but you continue your act. You play with her fingers and she traces patterns onto your thigh. And despite the commotion transpiring around the two of you, the entire world disappears.
Paige drops you back off at your apartment that night with bright blue eyes, hazy under the spell of intoxication, but she was drunk off of more than just the alcohol. She places a small kiss on your cheek, lips grazing the corner of your mouth before bidding you a good night.
You spend the whole night dreaming about it, over and over again.
*You can now read Part 2 and Part 3
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In The Woods Somewhere
Summary- Coriolanus does not intend on returning to the Capitol alone.
Warnings- MDNI 18+ DUBCON Female reader. TBOSAS spoilers technically. Reader is essentially Lucy Gray. Porn with plot. Toxic relationship. Possessive Coriolanus. Chasing. Biting. Restraint. Choking. Edging. Overstimulation. Fingering. Cunnilingus. P in V sex.
Authorâs Note- Happy holidays! This is not our regularly scheduled programming but I have Hunger Games/Tom Blyth brain rot so hereâs this monster. Please heed the warnings and link to the full fic on AO3 below
She knows the moment he looks up at her, rifle clutched in his hands, that he will not be coming north with her. Not anymore, not now that he has the one thing tying him to this place well in hand.
She isn't a fool. She knows that his feelings for her played only a small role in his agreeing to come with her but she had been willing to overlook that. When he had cupped her face in his hand and swore that he would join her, that they would escape Panem- and their collective noose- together, she had seen the hesitation there. Coryo was not a man built for nature, no more than he was built for the districts, but she loves him and so she had ignored it. Twisted it into something romantic and noble in her head, that he would give up all this, that he would leave behind everything for her. He had promised her earnestly and she had taken him at his word.
But with the look on his face now, some potent mix of elation and relief washing over him like a wave, she knows she never stood a chance.
"It's the gun," he says, and she hates the tone he uses. The way he almost breathes the words, the way he looks up at her with the ghost of a smile on his face. Had she had doubts about what the guns would inspire in him, the look on his face is enough to prove her right.
"The one you fired at Mayfair," she says with a nod, crossing her arms over her chest. It feels almost protective now, as if she can safeguard her breaking heart. "Spruce must have known about this place too. I guess it's not as secret as I thought. We hide that and you're free."
"No more loose ends."
The way he says it, his hands tightening on the barrel as he looks down at the rifle, makes her blood run cold. This is all he wanted, nothing short of a dream come true. She doesn't like it, her reaction just as much as his own, and she fights to push passed it. Tells herself that there is nothing wrong here, not really, that he is entitled to some semblance of excitement, but she can feel that unease gnawing at her gut. It feels like an omen. A warning.
She grins, hoping to seem more at ease than she truly is, and feels her nose scrunch up teasingly as she says, "Besides me."
It's the wrong thing to do. Immediately, he goes rigid, eyes darting up to look at her and she sees the distrust there, akin to a beaten dog. It wouldn't be as startling as it is if not for their conversation in the woods not even an hour before. He is willing to kill if backed far enough into a corner and is that not what she has just done? Reminded him of the power she held over him with this knowledge? Backed him into a corner? And just like that beaten dog, she can see that he is only a moment away from snapping at her with pearly white teeth.
"You wouldn't... tell anyone?"
She feels her eyebrows draw together, all attempt at joking gone. It hurts a little, what seems to be a complete lack of faith in her, and it's almost surprising. Almost. "Course not."
But would she? She doesnât really know now. The fact that he believes she could, as if she could exchange his freedom for her own, feels like the final nail in the coffin. She could forgive his dislike of the idea of heading north, the relief on his face when he saw the guns. But what he said in the woods- threeâs enough for me- and his distrust of her now⌠she doesnât think sheâs safe with him. All their talk of trust, of how he agreed it was worth more than love, thrown to the wind all for the sake of a duffle bag full of rifles. Because just as easily as those gun could buy her freedom, they could secure his own too. One small step toward returning to his life back in the Capitol. He was going to leave before killing Mayfair, she knew that. And if thereâs no weapon linking him to the crime, he could. Because no matter how badly she wants to believe he wants a life with her, she thinks he wants his old one back that much more.
And she isnât sure just what he is willing to sacrifice to get rid of all those loose ends.
She feels herself smile again, moving on autopilot to fetch the knife she knows is on the shelf near the door. It doesnât reach her eyes but she isnât looking at him, gripping the handle of the knife a little too tightly. âI think Iâm gonna go dig up some katniss. Thereâs a good patch down by the lake, donât know when weâll come across it again.â
His suspicion only grows at that, lips parted and head tilted in question, and she knows she needs to go. Though his finger has not yet shifted toward the trigger, it hasnât moved away from it either. He has been a Peacekeeper for no more than two months, but that was more than enough time to pick up all he needed to know about firing a gun. Even if his aim is shoddy, it wouldnât take much effort to aim in her general direction and hold down on a trigger. She had said it herself, she is the only one left who knew the truth about Mayfairâs death- her murder. If he wanted to go back to the Capitol, he needed to be damn sure there wasnât a chance of his time here coming back to haunt him. As it is now, she is the only thing standing between him and the Snow penthouse.
âThought you said they werenât ready yet,â he protests, that uncertainty still more than apparent.
She prays her smile doesnât look as forced as it feels when her eyes flick up to look at his handsome face, doing what she can to seem nonchalant. âThe world changes awful fast.â
She pulls the door open, the rain pounding against the porch outside, when he calls her name. Her grip on the knife tightens a hair more before sheâs turning back to look at him, keeping her eyes wide and innocent as she tilts her head in question. She knows she hesitated, knows he caught her if the look on his face is anything to go by, but rather than let her panic consume her, she focuses on his eyes. The beautiful, brilliant blue of his eyes. That may be the thing she misses most about him, after all this.
âItâs still raining.â
As if a little rain is enough to stop her from saving her own life.
âWell, Iâm not made out of sugar,â she grins, taking one last look at him before shutting the door, placing some kind of barrier between them.
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